今天写一写廖亦武——一个小人,不惜假北京当局的暴力威胁他人的无耻小人。
Today, I want to write about Liao Yiwu—— a Chinese dissident who tried to leak my personal info to Beijing in order to stop me criticizing his pro-Trump tweet.
熟悉我的朋友知道,自从我创作政治艺术作品,一直保持匿名,我从未在社交媒体或公众场合公布自己的个人信息,包括样貌,姓名,住址或者具体工作。而这一切小心翼翼都是为了保护自己和家人的安全,免受北京威胁迫害。然而,去年香港展览前,在中国家人被上海警方威胁之后,我方才知道身份彻底暴露,失掉了匿名这层唯一保护。我的生活自此被推入泥潭,展览被迫取消,家人持续被骚然,我身在国外亦被跟踪和威胁。我保持着沉默长达七个月,直到六四三十周年借由我的纪录片《中国异艺者》开腔并脱下面具,以真实的自我和世界见面,并继续我的艺术创作。
Since i started my political art, I have been carefully hiding my identity. I dont tell my name,age,face or working place in order to protect myself and my family from the threat of Beijing. However, I learnt that my identity was compromised after my HK show got cancelled due to the threat from Shanghai Police. It was the darkest day of my life and only the beginning of endless harassment and threat to me since then. I have to keep silence for 7 months in order to protect my documentary film, China‘s Artful dissident. And i finally decide to come out and confront Beijing face to face on the 30th anniversary of Tiananmen massacre with the release of the Doco.
然而究竟是什么使得我身份暴露,一直成为我巨大的心结。在我所能够回忆起的一些破绽之中,最令我恶心的便来自于廖亦武的故以泄露。
I have reflected a lot during the silence months. The biggest problem and risk is to find out what caused my identity leaking.I guess i can never be sure what really happened for so many years of hiding. However, there is one biggest leak i can never forget. And absurdly, it is from the famous dissident writer Liao Yiwu.
我和廖亦武本无来往,更无过节,只知他是一名异议作家,曾读过他的写实文学,颇为喜欢。2017年底,我加入艾未未柏林工作室,从事平面设计和辅助展览工作。但我只和亲近的朋友透露,从未在任何公开场合以巴丢草身份加入艾工作室。因为我明白,柏林并不是安全屋,担心一旦透露工作地点,可能引发身份暴露的危机。
I do not know Liao personally and of course has no beef with him either. In fact,I was quite a fan of his books before.In the end of 2017,I joined Aiweiwei’s berlin studio as a graphic designer and artsit assistant for exhibition installing. I only shared this great news with a very limited group of close friends. But i never announced it to public for i was worried that there are still a lot of eyes in Berlin and leaking that info might just give the perfect clue to my identity.
2017年,12月31日,廖亦武发了一条批评纽约时报的推文,大致意思是纽约时报不应该连篇累牍地批评川普。我随即发推回复廖,纽时批评本国总统再正常不过,这不是中国。然而,廖在回复中这样写道:巴丢草,知道你在艾未未工作室,所以你才故意攻击我。(此前,廖亦武与艾未未在网上有过激烈的争执。)对廖来说,这只是他随口回击的话语,但对于我确是致命的信息泄露。因此我立刻私信廖,要求他把那条透露我工作地点的推文删除,并告诉他这可能导致我身份泄露并给我的安全造成伤害。他随后将这儿条推文删除, 并发来私信:“好的,删除。我尊重你。但是,如果有一天。。。你懂我的意思,所以。。。。” 我回复:“我希望,也相信你不会以此为把柄,限制我的言论” 廖回复:"老廖还算一条汉子,说一不二。从此我不会再提到你"。
2017,December 31th,Liao sends a tweet for critcizing New York Times due to a article about some Trump scandal. I reply him that NYT did nothing wrong about watch its president,it is not China.Then the nightmare begins. liao tweets,“Badiucao,I know you are working for Aiweiwei in his studio. That's why you are slandering me.”(Liao had a big bad beef with Ai earlier this year.) For Liao,it might just be a careless counterattack. However,for me it could be vital. So i immediately direct message him and ask him to delete the tweet. I told him my concern and trust him it is just out of carelessness. I dont really know how he knows it,but it is not important at the moment.Fortunately he deleted it eventually. But the delete coming with a term,Liao messages “ok i am deleting it and I respect you. But one day... if... you know what i mean,so...”I reply,"I hope and believe that you are not going to exploit my privacy to threat my free speech."Liao,“I am a man of my word,i will never mention you.”
然而,时隔7天,说一不二,是条汉子的廖亦武再一次将我在艾未未工作室的信息公开发推,原因则和之前类似。第一次,我可以原谅他,虽然从来没有第二位异议人士这样“不小心”。然而再一次,故意而为之,下流。
But,just after 7 days,Liao posted my info again on twitter for similar reason.I can forgive him for the first time if its just due to oversight.But for second time, it is low and disgraceful.
我不得不再一次私信廖,质疑他为何要这样做,打破先前自己夸下的承诺,并要求他立刻删除。他开腔就是去你妈的,然后表示如果我先删除批评他的推文,他就会停止泄露我的隐私。我无奈,无法以个人安全和家人和无赖赌一时意气,只得删除。但我亦回复廖,他这样做毫无原则,是在以中共的暴力为后盾,威胁我的言论自由。
I have to message him again and ask him why he did it again. He jumps to F word as beginning this time. He wants me to delete my criticizing tweet first before doing anything.And if i refuse,he will leak more of my identity info publicly. I am so frustrated and simply can not risk the safety of me and my family for wrestling with a shameless coward like him. I deleted my twitter. I can not believe that i am bullied by a Chinese dissident who chooses to use Beijing to threat me with no regret.I told him that is so wrong and he should know better as a dissident who suffered from oppression from China.
廖随即答复:“事不过三,如果你下次再这样。。。如果你拉黑我,我会公开说,艾未未工作室的某某某拉黑了我” “只要你拉黑我,就证明了你有不可告人的理由,我也看不见你做了什么”
Liao replies,“if you do it again,or block on twitter,i will just openly announce that XXX is working for Aiweiwei in his studio.” “If you block me, it just proves that you have secrets from me and i can will not be able to see what you do behind me.”
事情已经过去一年大半,我从未公开提起此事,只因为这是一个哑巴亏,如果不是我现在以公开的身份继续政治艺术的抗争,我永远都无法向大家说明这起荒诞,可悲的事件。而这样一个无赖则可以继续扮演异议英雄,在每一个六四,在每一个刘晓波忌日吃他的人血馒头。我希望他能认识到自己的无耻,并能向我道歉。
A year and half gone now,I have never mentioned Liao's disgrace in public. I have to mute myself for protecting me and my family before. But now it is all different. I have revealed my self in front of Beijing and the world and i also want to reveal the disgusting untold side of Liao Yiwu to the world. So when he is continuing playing dissident hero, people can learn who he really is. I hope he can read this, and see how wrong he was. I am waiting for his apology.
有趣的是,在我公开身份以后,廖亦武已在推特把我主动屏蔽,看来这条汉子连自己威胁都食言了。
Interestingly,after i reveal my identity,Liao blocked me on twitter. I think he knows this is coming for him.